needy

i need someone

who would want to know everything about me

who would remember what i've already forgotten

who would understand my needs
who would think about my welfare before me
who would comfort me when i need comforting
who would say the right things
who would encourage me and believe in me
who would know what i want and need for myself
who would love me as much as he loves himself...

Shizuoka lovers,  2008

poor little children

setsuko was sleeping while sushi was seeking my attention.

since i'm writing, she decided to wake up setsuko who growled at her! she got scared and lied down beside me while setsuko stared at her, daring her to come near her again hahaha!

afterwards, she stepped on my laptop, barked at me, and then tried to get in between me and my laptop. she wanted to play but i couldn't! darn deadline. sorry sushi :( mommy needs to make money.

the world is a blur

i may be needing new lenses. my eyes feel tired all the time especially when i'm in front of the computer which is almost all day.

to laser or not to laser? i want to experience the 20/20 vision. i've forgotten how it is to see things clearly and not have to squint and still not be able see or read anything.

free again!

it's the first day in 2-3 weeks that i'm not doing anything

there's so much i want to do! go shopping! but i turned down an invitation to go to Muji because my body aches all over. i have 2 mixed media drawings i need to finish but i'll do that tomorrow since my hands are still tired from typing all week.

i want to read a book or even the magazine that Raymond brought me from HKIFF but my eyes are tired from staring at my computer screen for weeks now.

so i just ended up here in bed, lazily watching TV while blogging.

...something about serial killers again to relax me. maybe i'll watch a DVD later.

this morning was master's flight to L.A. i woke up at 8am and we sent him off to the airport. bye bye master! beware of serial killers!

Setsuko and Sushi

sick and tired

Photo credit

cutie sushi!

her hair is now long enough for a ponytail!

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carmi martin finished Fine Arts at the age of 47! it means it's not too late for me, isn't it?

disappointed

- at a sound designer who acted like a 12-year old boy. we gave you a chance. you didn't give us any. not even an explanation.
- at myself because i can't resign from work. i'm working for the money.
- at someone because he didn't remember to include my name in the acknowledgments for his recent work. am i just being sensitive?  this is not the first time he forgot about me. maybe i'm not helping him enough? i wasn't expecting my name to be there but when i didn't see it, it made me feel bad somehow. i don't want to make a big deal out of it.
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i had a nice birthday dinner. as a gift to myself, i checked in at New World Hotel. nice room. they upgraded us for an additional 2k and put us in the topmost floor (25th floor). we were also entitled to free cocktails at the 24th floor and free buffet breakfast but we didn't avail of those two hahaha.

instead, we ate at Italianni's where we saw Heart Evangelista and Daniel Matsunaga dating. then i bought myself a dress from Zara ( another bday gift to myself). then we watched Lincoln Lawyer (didn't like it. watch Law & Order instead) then we ate at our favorite restaurant Nanbantei Japanese restaurant

Bestseller: all chicken!

the next morning, we didn't wake up for the breakfast. we missed it, not surprisingly. we ordered room service and checked out at 4PM.

i don't recall how i celebrated my birthday last year.  so, all in all it was a memorable birthday this year.  hope next year, i can celebrate my birthday without any deadlines.