bed switching

a funny thing happened while i was writing the previous entry.

sushi was looking at me, then barking at my side of the bed. 

when i ignored her after a while, she slept on the floor beside me.

after i published the entry and i got up, i carried her and wondered why she was sleeping there. 

then i saw setsuko sleeping soundly on sushi's bed. wawang baby haha! kaya pala ko tinatahulan kanina, nagsusumbong.

setsuko wouldn't budge when i tried to wave her to her own bed so i just squeezed sushi in.

  

but after a while, sushi got up and just slept on the big pillow!

naawa naman ako so i carried setsuko to her bed and then put sushi on hers. 

now sushi got up again and went outside. maligalig 'tong batang 'to!

but she gave me an idea what to buy Setsuko for Christmas: a new bed!  

Setsuko's stare

Setsuko keeps on staring at me with her sad, begging-for-attention gaze. 

sometimes while she's walking, she would just stop and stare at me.

then i have to stop writing and look at her and give her attention.

this while i'm writing so it's hard to concentrate.

i put her on the bed but she still keeps on staring at me.

so i put her on my lap and pet her and talk to her. she seems to relax.

sometimes, i'm afraid she wants to tell me something.

and i dread that she wants to say goodbye to me. 

it's just that lately, if she's not begging for food, 

she seems sad and introspective. 

oh no Setsuko. you have many years ahead of you.

don't leave mommy yet. 

not one, but two.

when i woke up, i got a text update about my friend who's still in the hospital. the text messages sound worse every time. i don't know what to do for her. she doesn't want us to see her in her state.  i don't know what to tell her anymore through text. how can i comfort her in her pain? just last night i was browsing the internet for cancer survivors. i was hopeful because there were late stage cancer patients who are able to manage their illness and living up to now for 17 years...

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setsuko is sick too.

according to her vet, she has to undergo ovariohysterectomy which in layman's term means removal of the ovary. apparently, since she only got pregnant once, her ovary is rotting and has to be removed. or she can opt for antibiotics for life. i'm going to get a second opinion but it seems setsuko is going to have an operation soon at 7 years old.

according to this dog chart, setsuko is 47 years old. she's still active right now and always hungry. it seems every december, she gets sick. it started last year.

at least i can do something to save setsuko. but with my friend, i feel helpless. we all feel helpless.

groomed!

went to the vet today for some needed grooming.

the guy looks like he really loves dogs. 

i'll come back to this place because of that (and the loyalty card too).

setsuko is tired from all the brushing.

but the two look happy afterwards :)

yung nanay kaya, kelan makakapagpa-parlor? ;-)

setsuko is sick :(

and this is the culprit, canned Pedigree dog food which is bad for the liver according to the doctor. 

canned Pedigree dog food

she growled at master and that's so unlike her. maybe she was already having stomach pains then.

good thing i sent her to the doctor immediately. vomiting is always a bad sign. 

i'm so sorry setsuko. it's my fault that you're sick now. from now on, you'll be a vegetarian with occasional chicken and pork diet.