one rainy night in Japan

the recent news saddens me. 

the picture below is to remind me of the Japan i know. 

outside my apartment in Saitama, Japan; 2008

i took this picture the night before i left Japan. after four months of staying there for a grant, i can say it's my favorite country in the world (understandably). i valued the silence, the cleanliness, the efficiency, the respect for privacy, most of all, the politeness and courteousness of the Japanese people.

they have gone through tougher times than this. they will pull through.

Extinct!

Have Dutch women found the secret to happiness?

I have never been a feminist. I have never been after equality between men and women. As long as a man respects me and loves me, I can always accept him as my master and superior because he wouldn't be my boyfriend anyway if I feel that I'm smarter or more successful than he is.

I still look for chivalry. When I'm standing inside the train, I still expect men to give up their seats to women (maybe not to me but to the elderly or women with kids). And if a man would give up his seat for me, then i would appreciate him more.

It's always been more natural for women to take care of the men e. Of course we can do whatever the men can do, maybe better! But unlike men, we won't kill ourselves to prove ourselves to others. We do it just because we want to do it. With men, they love to compete, to hunt, to go head to head against other men for food/money/other women. It's their nature to be that way.

But the problem is, i think men nowadays are the ones who want equality because they don't want to be fully responsible of their women. Feeling siguro nila, ano kayo sinusuwerte? Kami lang magpapakahirap magtrabaho? Where can you find men who would gladly provide for their women, let them do what they want, and not force them to work because they want to worship them instead? Wala nang ganun!

I think the article is a big lie or maybe it's only true for a small population of (Dutch) women. I don't want to believe that so many women are living like this and I'm not one of them.

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split personality

if i had a choice, i would resign right now from TV work.

i would just finish my fashion design course and take it together with the dressmaking course. if i go to school regularly, i can finish the course in a year siguro. (i remember when my sister in Australia wanted to take up a baking course, she and kuya abe had to talk and make a lot of sacrifices because of the kids. but they were able to do it with each other's support.)

i would read books everyday just like i used to do in Japan during my grant (oh, how i miss those carefree days). 

i would write the stories i want to write.

then when i'm finished with my studies, i would put up an online store or something. or just design for friends first to build my portfolio. then eventually, my clientele will grow without me having to advertise myself.

but these can only happen in a perfect world. this one i'm in is far, far from it.

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by the way, i'm absent today from class because i have to write trash.

but what is trash?

think of rogelio and the pinoys who eat pagpag everyday. i should be happy because i'm luckier. i should be happy. be happy. be happy.

feeling...

depressed.

unimportant.

unhappy. 

ugly.

insecure.

Globe is not Smart

last year, after more or less 10 years of a steady relationship with Smart, i left it for Globe.

in that 10 years, the only complaint i have of Smart is that it always ignored me. didn't make me feel special. it took me for granted as a loyal client. so when friends, especially a special someone, told me to leave it for Globe, it was easy to decide.

when i went to the center to have my line disconnected, Smart didn't even ask me why i'm breaking up with it. it just let me go, as if we weren't together for 10 years! i was being ignored again. so it made my decision easier.

so i applied for Globe in August last year and after only just 2 months, i'm calling their hotline to complain that my auto debit request hasn't been processed yet (i left all my requirements with them on the same day i applied for my line).

i followed up every month and i always got a reference number in return. but nothing happened. last December or January, i even got a disconnection notice. so i followed up again. and they gave me another reference number. but i didn't hear a word from them since then.

it's now March 1 and i found out when i woke up that i couldn't send a text message. my line has been temporarily disconnected! WTF!

out of principle, i don't want to go to their center and give them my requirements AGAIN! whoever was responsible should find my documents and file my auto debit request. in the meantime, i'm stuck with globe for another 1 and a half years.

isn't there a way out? can i just go back to boring but reliable Smart? i want my iPhone but not the all-talk-but-no-action Globe!

yesterday when i was young

turning 32 in 2 months :(

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Seems the love I've known has always been
The most destructive kind
Yes, that's why now I feel so old
Before my time.

Yesterday when I was young
The taste of life was sweet as rain upon my tongue.
I teased at life as if it were a foolish game,
The way the evening breeze may tease a candle flame.
The thousand dreams I dreamed, the splendid things I planned
I'd always built to last on weak and shifting sand.
I lived by night and shunned the naked light of the day
And only now I see how the years ran away.
[ Lyrics from: http://www.lyricsmode.com/lyrics/r/roy_clark/yesterday_when_i_was_young.html ]
Yesterday when I was young
So many happy songs were waiting to be sung,
So many wild pleasures lay in store for me
And so much pain my dazzled eyes refused to see.
I ran so fast that time and youth at last ran out,
I never stopped to think what life was all about
And every conversation I can now recall
Concerned itself with me and nothing else at all.

Yesterday the moon was blue
And every crazy day brought something new to do.
I used my magic age as if it were a wand
And never saw the waste and emptiness beyond.
The game of love I played with arrogance and pride
And every flame I lit too quickly, quickly died.
The friends I made all seemed somehow to drift away
And only I am left on stage to end the play.

There are so many songs in me that won't be sung,
I feel the bitter taste of tears upon my tongue.
The time has come for me to pay for
Yesterday when I was young...